Another bad day.

  Although I have refrained from discussing negative things in my blog, I would like to share about some of the difficult things that have happened at work recently.  Morale at my school is very very low.  My director "does not believe in discipline" and it shows.  Students can walk over teachers, and nothing will be done about it.  Teachers can also walk over other teachers, and nothing will be done about it.  People that speak up about it in staff meetings are silenced and told to talk to my director about it in private.  People that go to my director in private are told that they can only worry about themselves and it is up to them to have a positive morale.  I have gone to him several times, always with the school's best interests in mind, and have been treated like a child.

  Last week, my director's boss came into town (this was the man who interviewed me for my position, and I know he cares a lot about the school).  We were given the option to meet with him if we wanted to, and I took it.  I stressed how the school was suffering; he agreed with me and said that he had talked to several staff members about it, but that it was my director's responsibility to fix the problems.

  Today, after a meeting with his boss, my director wanted to speak with me in private.  He reaffirmed that he knew that we did not agree on the discipline issue, but that his position was that discipline was not always the best option (so an alternative...?).  I was told that if I wasn't happy with the way the school was being run, that I did not have to sign a contract to come back next year (his boss did tell me last week that I had to stay on for another year, so I am getting mixed signals).  End of discussion.

  I am stunned with disbelief.  I have been told by several staff members that the only way to survive is to stop caring.  But I don't really want to stop caring.  If I didn't care, I would not have become a teacher.

  Real like kinda sucks sometimes.  Why did I have to graduate?